You told me not to cry
and I said that I wouldn't
You said I needed to be strong
and I promised I would be
but the tears I can't hold back
I can not hold these tears within
You told me not to cry, but I did
The tears held behind my eyes
were drowning my insides
My heart could not float
underneath dashed hopes
My being lay breathless
as if underneath a capsized boat
My insides-consumed by emotion
they seem around and above me
like looking up at the ocean
Engulfed in misery
my future was my history
I tried to move on
but I was missing a piece of me
You were my eyes
for it was you I yearned to see
Why should I have sight
if I can not lay my eyes on you
I cried to wash the images off my mind
of your eyes closed- you lying there with no life
I would rather be plunged into the darkness of night
and at the time of your passing
be eternally blind
I cried to release the pain
of my failed attempt at conversation
as you did not reply
when I stroked your face, and called your name
I cried to fight the sorrow
that tried to overcome me
I cried to stop my soul
to stop my soul from crumbling
I cried to let go of you
because it was killing me to hold on
it will be a hear lesson to learn
but I must learn to go on
I now cherish your memory
your spirit replaces my grief
your spirit fills my emptiness
your legacy lives within me
